If It's Meant To Be ...

I love Sara Haze's new demos!  I can't wait for her newest album to come out!
I've been listening to her new songs all day while I study for my boards, and it's pretty soothing and non-distracting.

I particularly love this song the most because it reminds me of my similar experience with someone I shared a moment with.  ;)
Maybe I'll see him again one day...  if it's meant to be.

Day off?? More like ...

... day of recuperation.

I finally have a job and have started working as a pre-graduate intern (obviously, only until I graduate and become licensed, in which case, I will no longer be an intern)!
Yesterday was my first 14-hour shift... something I knew I'd need to get used to in the future, so I thought I'd start now.  But man... oh man... It feels like death today - migraine, fatigue, nausea, etc.  I felt fine when I woke up this morning, so I decided to hit the gym for a 2-mile run and finished with some ab workout before meeting up with my bestie for lunch & shopping.  But as soon as we finished hanging out, I started feeling not-so-good.  =(  I pray that this is not how my life will be when I become a licensed professional, or else my days off will be filled with only sleeping and eating at home.  That's no way to live a single's life.

The neighborhood in which I work is far from ideal.  It didn't hit me until I found myself speaking with an ex-con to advise him of which products to use and in turn, he told me how he was recently arrested and for what reason.  The staff and I met some other interesting people throughout the day.
But it was reassuring to also know we have police officers who come in and out because they are from the neighborhood.  I struck up a convo with one of the cops as I helped him find the right product for his allergies.  But he reminded me of someone I'd rather not think about.  =x

I'm trying to do all I can to recuperate tonight, so I will survive tomorrow's second 14-hour shift of the week.
Advil... help me out.
Jesus, please help me too.

Back to the Daily Grind

Now that the excitement of the two weddings this past weekend has died down, and the celebration of

Easter has once again passed, I am back to the daily grind of GSE (gym, study, eat).

My roommate's wedding went well and I had the most amazing time I have had in a looooong time!  Everyone looked gorgeous and so happy!  The Au Wedding!  The photographers were amazing and so much fun!

I was able to meet up with my close friend for the end of her wedding celebrations later that night as well.  I wish it lasted longer, but I think it was necessary to turn in early for all of us, considering all of the things that took place earlier that day.

Now, back to finding a job ASAP and studying for the NAPLEX & law exam.  I can't wait for graduation in ONE MONTH!!!  It needs to come sooner!

'Tis the season...

We enter into the wedding season... Pinterest is full of images of merry couples, beautiful wedding gowns, breath-taking centerpieces... Facebook is full of uploaded pics of engagement rings and status updates of wedding preparation progresses.

I, myself, am in my roommate's wedding at the end of the month, which is the same day as my closest friend's wedding (long story), and my cousin's wedding has now been chosen to be on that very same day across the world in the Motherland.

Amidst all of this, I'm in a total limbo state.  Needing to be happy for others while helping with preparations, while deep down inside, I'm still grieving over my first breakup which occurred 5 1/2 weeks ago (but feels like it happened 5 months ago); I'm also in the process of getting a job (this month) as I await graduation from grad school in May, which feels like forever away; and I am studying for my national boards to be licensed and the state law exam (although I have no idea which state I will be practicing in); and racking up required intern hours to forward to the state board.

Life feels like a mess.  I feel like a mess.  Nothing feels stable.  Grasping at straws and air on a daily basis.  When did the rug get pulled from under me...?  Feels like it must have been a while ago.

Been listening to a lot of Shane & Shane lately, including their older albums on Spotify.  Fell in love with the song called "Over The Sun".  I think it's talking about how Solomon, the wisest man in history, means that we should store up treasures in Heaven and not to make earthly idols out of the things of this world expecting those things to bring us satisfaction because in the end, it is all temporary; but God's love is everlasting.


 Sitting around the fireplace
With a friend who's been through it allSolomon, wisest one, tell me what you have foundUnder the sun, under the sun
He answered, "Get overGet over, get over the sunGet over, get over, get over the sunWhere life is hidden"
And then he put on a somber faceTalked about how the rich man will wasteAway in the ground where the poor man is foundPainted up like a clown under the sun, under the sun
He answered, "Get overGet over, get over the sunGet over, get over, get over the sun"
Soon you'll be doneA life spent on some shiny GodWho leaves you empty
Get over, get over, get over the sunGet over, get over, get over the sun